My Moment

A moment with my dad and my sister!

Can you feel it?

A Wink

I met a new friend the other day...

One look at my necklace and they had to say:

"What a beautiful Star that is!"

Proudly I respond, "It's from my dear sister who has passed away"

A sincere smile came across their face and then they said:

"Then that compliment I gave you was a wink"

I believe it's her way of saying, "I am gone, but am here with you to stay!"

Bereavement Poem

My dear friend Laurie has lost her friend Ms. Angelle, so I would like to post this poem for her:

This is a famous bereavement poem written by Mary Frye.

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.

There have been many versions of it translated and re-written. I'm not sure which one this is, but I like this one because it seems the most real.

An Orb in comfort

I just love this picture.

Lisa and I with Mama, comforting each other in our loss. This picture was taken in Houston, during the days of Mary's wake & funeral. So sad we are.
I was looking at this picture a little more closely and can't believe I didn't see this before.... if you look on my arm, you will see a beautiful white orb attached to me. Mary is still with us! She is truly attached to my soul! In my heart and in my mind, she is still here!

A Doll to Cherish

August 1986, I was leaving my home in San Antonio to live with my dad in Houston. That meant that i was leaving my sister Mary my senior year and her freshman year of highschool.

It was a really tough time in my life. All the signs pointed in the direction of moving to Houston to live with my dad. I hated leaving my siblings and my mom, but it was a move I had to do. Mary was so distraught, her big sis was leaving. We had grown close in the last year. The day I was leaving, she gave me this lil doll. It represented Mary as she was about to become. A cheerleader for our highschool - Red and White were the colors and this doll truly reminded me of her. The note on the tag said it all: "I will miss you ..."

I treasure this lil doll - my Mary doll

Markelett the very special Monkey

"Markelett" is a very very special little Webkin Monkey...

I named him after Mary, Kelsey & Brett! Three very special people in my life.

I put their names together & Markelett is what I came up with :)!

When Mary died, I wanted to build a closeness with her kids - my neice & nephew, Kelsey & Brett! It was a must!!! Kelsey inherited her mommy's phone so I was able to talk to her all the time. At the time, she was very into the world of Webkin's ~ where they bought a Webkin animal and registered it in Webkin world on the internet. Kelsey & Brett were both very very into it. They had to feed their Webkins on the site and make them work, so they could buy things in the Webkin world for their Webkin house full of many rooms they. As you can tell, I joined this Webkin world to be close to the kids. I bought my Markelett!!!

Well, I've had Markelett for while now and since the kids have outgrown the world of Webkin, he has been quietly sitting on the topshelf of my bookcase., tucked away in the corner. Two times in the last week, Markelett has been found in the middle of the floor - it's only Chad, myself & Boo. It wasn't Chad and it wasn't me, so I have to imagine it's Boo - although he has not proven to be a stuffed animal kind of cat, the only other thought is surreal. I'd like to think it's Mary, letting me know she's near! Who knows.....

My 2nd Cousin - Jenn's dream

My dad's sister, Aunt Linda ~ her daughter Susan's (MY COUSIN) daughter Jenn had the most beautiful dream and shared it with me. I believe she was blessed by a visit of our loved one's who have passed on. Her analogy seems to make sense and be right on. How beautiful... they are still with us. Loving us and watching over us in all that we do.

The Dream:

"Jeni! I had a dream Thursday night and I immediately thought of you! In my dream I was at church looking out a window and I saw these 3 birds. One was a cardinal, the other two had cardinal bodies but their wings and tail were white and long. The three birds came to the window and in my dream I looked at the person next to me and said "That's my great-grandma" (one of the white ones). Then I turned to the window and said "Hi, Grandma". Then I walked to a door and these two boys were telling me that they had a brother at home, that he wasn't with them. They also had sisters at home too. And they didn't look exactly like them but in my mind they were Uncle Dave and Uncle Rick and the brother and sisters they were talking about were Uncle Bill, my Grandma, Aunt Loretta and Aunt Judy. Then I woke up. I don't know what it means, but I thought it was weird! I was thinking about the day Uncle Rick died when I was going to sleep so maybe that triggered it. Anyways, I thought of you!"

This is our Grandma Combs

Thank you Jenn for sharing your dream with me...... Love, your cousin Jeni